Forever

The water was so still
            I believed it would keep us
                        right-side up forever
there in that pool
            on a night so dim
                        it looked like the negative
of itself, with the friend
            I loved in high school,
                        a boy (I thought
they were a boy) who
            had also shed
                        their clothes and risked
the bare run into
            chlorine heaven, a place
                        that seems like a myth
to me now, where I felt
            no shame, our twin forms,
                        from far away,
naked mirrors
            of the other, bodies
                        we both lied about
every day, but that night
            I helped you shave
                        your legs for the first
time, soaping them
            and edging a cheap pink
                        razor up your calf, rinsing
sixteen years of
            growth in the wrong
                        direction down the drain,
listening to Karen Carpenter
            whimper from another
                        room, we’ve only just begun.
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